a whole new beginning

2010-04-07T12:06:00.000-07:00

sighs..
I tot im gd at telling ppl's my intentions..
But..
Its the first time when i encountered otherwise..

It does drains me a lot when I dun get what I wans..
Im tat kind of person to begin with.. Thou i dun usually have such desire..

Sighs..
But..
then..
It showed tat im as flawed as the rest..
N its only bcuz of tis 1 person..
for good or for bad..
I guess im being challenged once again..

Im nice..
But tis time..
Im trying hard to be nice..

p.s. i don't make friends easily.. tat makes my friends tat i've made so important to me..

dun drained me dry.. u're not entilted to do so..

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!

wat's wrong wif me?
sighs..
wadever..

2010-04-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

I may be wrong.. but u're not right..

I really dun find them funny..

I find it irritating..

seriously... stop all those nonsense..

2010-03-23T06:36:00.000-07:00

i tried to make myself happy..
keeping myself occupied..
sharing it with my love ones to make myself feel better...
eat to cheer myself up..

But those words juz makes me teared so badly...

*not 1 but 2.

2010-03-22T23:22:00.000-07:00

I dun really noe why am i like tis recently..
Im juz tired..

I wan my sacrifice to be seen...
This is how selfish i am..
I get all fuked up if its not..
N im at my limit recently..
For not having enough rest.. For waking up early in the morning to go buy food.. For buying so many things when im so fuking broke.. For staying at ntuc when im so FUK tired juz waiting for replies..

Im not in the perfect mood recently..
Im sorry if i throw my temper ard..
There's juz so much to do.. N i had so lil time..
All i want to do is to rest more n enjoy myself to the fullest in korea..
N then, the fucking lugguage is killing me; i juz got to start packing up with my stuff uncomplete..

Let me be human for once n ignore my nonsense..
im a cranky person to begin with..
Like it or not..
I think I gave up portraiting myself being nice..

I juz need to rest.
I juz need to rest.
I juz need tat rest.
sighs..

2010-03-20T09:37:00.000-07:00

真正爱一个人的时候是不需要占有他。

有些话不说，错过了就没机会了。

2010-03-17T10:53:00.000-07:00

Tis song is *thumbs up*

Makes you feel happy listening to it..

like the starting.. without the singing..

LOL

2010-03-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

*yawns*
Thank god thr isnt work tml..

working at ibm was though..
Im literally bcum a cleaner wif all those washing..
now u noe y i didnt mind washing the dishes?
=)

so dry that it becomes shiny..

Met up wif bee today..
N she told me she's opening her own cafe in 5yrs down the road..
Therefore she's taking full time in spinelli..
It somehow made me hesistate a lil on my own career path..
As i wanted to open my own cafe too.. Yet.. I wanna look for a higher paying job.. of course.. better than being a spinelli full-timer..

...
My dream is to open my cafe too..
but.. am i trying as hard as her?
sighs..
idk..

Somehow.. I feel like having a car of my own first..
Possible? / Impossible?

So how important $ is now??

lol..

F.tired recently..
I wanna get away from humans..
tired of facing people..

Its tiring to smile and talk when u dun feel like..
Pretend to laugh when its not funny..
And act like a total different person..

Maybe im juz tired today..
screwed

2010-03-14T09:29:00.000-07:00

few sentence to sum up everything..

Another enjoyable day spent..

K-session from 7-9.30pm...

And it actually starts from 7pm -3am..
So.. sing K all u wan before 31mar..
=)

jiayou at work!
bestest,

2010-03-13T07:25:00.000-08:00

if u noe me well..
U're realised tat when im tired..

I cant get onto the topic and get down wif discussion..
Or rather.. we chatted.. but all the *huh?* goes ard in ur mind..

Im sorry!

being dumb by nature..
I when my brain is tired..
My entire self is on hibernating mode..

So.. do tell me to go slp and it will not angered u..
haha..

goodnite~

2010-03-12T06:34:00.000-08:00

hilarious snsd
http://listpod.tv/search?query=hello+baby+ep+12+part+3
2:20 to 3:25

funny sooyong

2010-03-11T08:39:00.000-08:00

I swear im gonna enjoy myself to the fullest @ korea for working so damn hard juz for the pathetic pay..
ARGH!
hates waking up early..
N i juz wanna finish all those variety shows..

But I cant possibly be scamming mummy and browie for extra allowance everytime when i had my "basic" allowance..
Owww..
It kinda suck when you noe they're about to stop giving you allowance and wanted you to get ur butt off the comfort zone and start working like a cow with the never ending 9-5.. 5day/wk schedules..

sighs..
too early to think bout it..

Too much to handle..
N im tired..
Ciao..

2010-03-08T08:11:00.000-08:00

=)
080310..
The usual 3 again..
went to watch alice in the wonderland 3d..
Had sushi for lunch cum dinner..
n slacked wif yougurt ice cream n bubble tea..

The rest of the pics in fb..

Find tat the pic ahyan took is always veri nice..
XD
<--- looks cool.. haha..

<-- looks kiddish..

Brings out our character..

isnt it skillful..

LOL!

Hopefully i dun get myself killed after blogging this..

Well, its another day of spending $..

Shall try to budget myself down..

Mummy told daddy not to give me allowance anymore..

As i've been stretching my hands out even when im working..

But.. I really doesnt have $..

besides withdrawing from bank..

Im sure you would agree wif me tat even when working, the

money is just nowhr to be seen.. right right right?

Alright..

Enough of complaints..

Shall go to slp..

Waking up tml at 5.15am,5.30am..

Hopefully badminton/cycling session wun be the 3 of us again..
Or maybe it will be..

=) but im sure those would come will come..

Goodnite and sweet dreams..

2010-03-07T08:11:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I really dun understand..
Y cant people be more straight forward?

It pissed me..
IT PISSED ME..

Im good with tolerating nonsense..
but u cant possibly be giving me shit..
Im good with dealing people..
But if each were to selfishly give their own comments and ask me to figure out a win-win solution for everyone..

THE ANSWER IS FUKINGLY NO!
NO!
It make me tired..
CUZ IM THE ONLY ONE DOING THESE SHIT..

Dun test my patience when im serious..
I dun like jokes to begin with..

P.S. Im selfish, I wan people to appreciates me and understand whr im coming from..
Thr's a reason for my friends to become my friend..
Im sure they knows it better than i do..

To me, friends are like investments..
U cant possibly invest in every stocks..
you only picked the 1's tat u noe can sustain..
N let go of those tat isnt earning..
tat makes u richer..

*redundant?*

I juz wanna rant.. ignore.

2010-03-07T07:10:00.000-08:00

Friday, 5th march..
Met up wif bff again..
Tis time its dinner cum k-session..
Didnt bring my camera along as it was a last min decision..

I actually find k-session so much better wif bff..
haha?
Maybe tat's the reason u're my dearest,one n only bff!
Your ability of getting high urself singing,
Speciality of keeping me soooo entertained with the song you sing..
I cant help but tagged to sing along wif you..
you didnt ask me to sing..
Cuz u noe.. I will sing if i really want to..
N so i did..

Maybe its bcuz u noe me too well..
Or rather you could bring out the full 100% huiling..
=)

Well..
juz came back not long ago after a day of stayover session at lynda's house..
IM TIRED..
ciao~

2010-03-04T06:49:00.000-08:00

4/3/10

Finally got the chance to meet up wif bff!

LIKE, 1 mth!

hahaha..

God.. tat idiot actually gotten slimmer after a wk of lao x-ing.. =
she has a even sharper face..

Envy envy envy..

Having her daily exercise; jogging for 1hr..

Oh..

I really gotta start slimming down too..

Well, If we're really slimming down..

I kinda worried that we wun eat a lot anymore..

haha..

Nvm.. I'd love to exercise tgt than eat a lot tat makes us fatter!

Anyway..

back to the topic..

shopping was fun..

Maybe everything was fun bcuz its wif bff..

the table for 2 is funny..

with the *twist sign* where the waiter did n you actually followed with a smile..

The shirt where you asked is nice or not when u tried it on.. N i told u its not..

N after the mins of walking I actually told u tat the shirt was nice n you claimed tat its what u have chosen with the "i hate you"..

As i told her its not nice when she wore it n actually say the shirt is nice..

LOL!

N the countless laughter we shared on random stuff.. =D

Treating me drinks, telling me you're filthy rich dunno whr to spend on..

When u understand im saving for my korea trip..

Cheering me on my endless tiring jobS and being thr for me as my supportive friend..

Thank you for everything!

My BEST BEST BEST FRIEND!

The smile tat stays..

No 1 can do it better than you..

2010-03-01T23:54:00.000-08:00

The weather is soooooo HOT that it juz cant stop slping..

Enjoy huh..

AHHHHH..

N bcuz of the hot sun...

I became CHAO TAR~

All thank to the afternoon picnic hur hur hur!

Lol..

all thanks to my own stupidity to fly kite under the hot sun.. XD

But it was FUN..

N my kite can fly high HIGH!

*proud*

N after picnic was dinner n k-session..

super on peggy agreed on staying wif us and after k-session which was ard 3am,

cab-ed to ahyan house to slack..

super nice delwyn came over and fetch me n peg hm after a short while..

and hm-ed at 5am+..

N today is basically all day rotting n rest to get started for tml's work at 7.30am..

SIGHS..

Torture starts again when it comes to work..

But will be meeting bff on thurs..

So.. awaiting awaiting awaiting.. =D

Shall enjoy myself to the fullest at hm watching shinee hello baby.. nice! XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lz1-k2hZllo&feature=related

**If life is all about friends, enjoyment, family and home..**

Next.

Im gonna stop working like ****..

If gg out will take away $50-$100+ a daye equivalent to 2,3days of work)

Its not gg to go anywhr far..

how to earn $700 a mth?

Its so damn retard, expenses as compared to my earnings..

ARGHHHHH!

lols?

-.-'''

Let's try to spend lesser will do..

HAHAHAHA!

juz joking..

work till i drop!

2010-02-27T07:42:00.000-08:00

Hmmm..
Im lazy to put pictures..
So..
Words will do..

Have u been feeling the same way as I do?
Surfing the net is getting more and more boring?
It's like, I would rather be watching emo groom itself..

Most likely, Wat we can do when we on the laptop is..
1) login to msn.. (to check if who is ard)
2) maybe listen to some songs while trying to open websites..
3)facebook? twitter? blog? youtube? (all you can do is to check for recent updates of others to kill time)
So.. What's next?

Drama-mamaing is *thumbs up*
But not a gd thing to do when u're otw to lala land and trying to keep urself awake..

I mean..
Life's boring huh?
I wan some entertainments to keep me refreshed..
I wan midnight prawning..
I wan picnic session..
I wanna go swimming n gym session..
I wan stayover sessions..
I wanna go shopping wif bff..
I WANNA DRINK TILL I DROP..

But..
I stuck wif my work..
N it pretty much is draining me dry after everyday's work..
I wished for a 12hrs slp..
Cum enjoyments before I step into the oh-mi-god-whose-gonna-noe-what-happens-next situation when im suppose to get my ass of my comfort zone and start earning for my family..
T.T

hard to imagine isnt it?
So..
Book me out 1wk in adv..
LOLS..
ARGH.. damn those contradictions..
I NEED TO EARN MORE $ FOR MY KOREA TRIP!
=(
but i wanna enjoy..

2010-02-26T06:06:00.000-08:00

It has been work work and countless work..
Indeed it was a hetic wk..
Being quiet and reserved..
I do really find it hard to be loud and spontaneous working at universal studio..

I wonder if its the real me or juz another mask that i've gotten used to..
That I became slightly.. I mean.. slightly noisy..
I talked a lot..
For good or for worse..
*clap clap* for adapting well..

Will you disagree wif me if i say :"Life's all about acting and playing the role you want yourself to potrait and others to believe?"

Juz rmb to put off all the mask when u're wif ur friends and family..
For they'll accept your flaws and prefers the real you...

=)
Been feeling
good good GOOD lately..

You noe the power of friendship..
fuel tat keeps me all charged even without much rest..
=D

p.s. it makes me happy to noe that im not forgotten..
alright.. working tml again..
ciao..

2010-02-20T08:48:00.000-08:00

<-- cute huh? =D Tis is the first time I caught something at the arcade.. The 1 tat is kena hiam-ed by ahyan.. LOL.. dou hway-ed wif fishy n ahyan while they are having their breaks.. Realised tat.. Their work is actually easier earned.. Sad dao~ Hopefully the first day of work tml will be easy for me and ame.. if not.. jialat..
Slimming starts tomorrow..
Not confident wif juz working and not exercising thou..
But will use my off days for exercise..
Including if im still not dead by then..
HAHAHA..

It's time to get down to serious business..
2mths 5kg..

PLEASE DO NOT TEMPT ME WIF FOOD...
XD
jiayou ppls..

p.s. I smiled when u smile from the btm of ur heart..
p.s. jiayou bff for ur exam and meet me soon!

With F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Sometimes, all you need is juz one connection that bind the souls to enjoy that happiness worth more than the entire universe.. =)

2010-02-19T07:01:00.000-08:00

Been having a hard time recently..

The sore throat that leds coughing then flu and the injection tat leds to my mild fever..

Its not tat im weak..

Juz tat im nv immune to throat infections..

The temperature will juz go up up and UP if I doesnt rest..

Cool huh?

Tat's the power of a minor sore throat.. XD

Anyway, working schedules are rather scary..

uss 21(sun) 3pm-10pm, uss 22(mon) 8am-3pm, spinelli 24(wed) 7am-3pm, uss 26(fri) 8am-3pm, spinelli 27(sat) 7am-3pm, uss 28(sun) 8am-3pm.

The combination of universal studio and spinelli..

I have to get well asap..

Cuz I worried I might fired the boss if im tired.. XD

Earning $700 for korea..

Lastly.. Since every1 is like trying to slim down..

I'll start slimming by chionging work and eatting less..

As well as saving the $ used to top into korea trip..

Let's get our butt moving..

1) to slim down for during the next 2mths..

2)to earn $ for korea trip..

3)to stop enjoying n let the torture begin..

2010-02-14T10:50:00.000-08:00

note about purple!!

Helpers who need to be needed

People of this personality type essentially feel that they are worthy insofar as they are helpful to others. Love is their highest ideal. Selflessness is their duty. Giving to others is their reason for being. Involved, socially aware, usually extroverted, Twos are the type of people who remember everyone's birthday and who go the extra mile to help out a co-worker, spouse or friend in need.

Twos are warm, emotional people who care a great deal about their personal relationships, devote an enormous amount of energy to them, and who expect to be appreciated for their efforts. They are practical people who thrive in the helping professions and who know how to make a home comfortable and inviting. Helping others makes Twos feel good about themselves; being needed makes them feel important; being selfless, makes Twos feel virtuous. Much of a Two's self-image revolves around these issues, and any threat to that self-image is scarcely tolerated. Twos are thoroughly convinced of their selflessness, and it is true that they are frequently genuinely helpful and concerned about others. It is equally true, however, that Twos require appreciation; they need to be needed. Their love is not entirely without ulterior motive.

Twos often develop a sense of entitlement when it comes to the people closest to them. Because they have extended themselves for others, they begin to feel that gratitude is owed to them. They can become intrusive and demanding if their often unacknowledged emotional needs go unmet. They can be bossy and manipulative, feeling entirely justified in being so, because they "have earned the right" and their intentions are good. The darkest side of the type Two fixation appears when the Two begins to feel that they will never receive the love they deserve for all of their efforts. Under such circumstances, they can become hysterical, irrational and even abusive.(lol)

Because Twos are generally helping others meet their needs, they can forget to take care of their own. This can lead to physical burnout, emotional exhaustion and emotional volatility. Twos need to learn that they can only be of true service to others if they are healthy, balanced and centered in themselves.

Thank cins for the personality test quiz..

Try it!

http://www.eclecticenergies.com/enneagram/test.php

*p.s. love is not entirely without ulterior motive.
they need to be needed

Sometimes I wished I would stop living for others..
But.. I cant..

2010-02-13T10:27:00.000-08:00

It's chinese new year..
N its valentine..

Somehow.. I am reluctant to go for tis yr new yr celebration..
Maybe its bcuz i had to go to mummy's relative house visiting..
Or maybe im lazy to dress up..
Perhaps I dun wish to entertain people..
Im starting to find chinese new year a lil lame..
-.-'''
ARGH!
Thank god daddy's starting work at chu 4..
If not i'll be dragged to visit his boring "brothers" or "aunts"..
=(
I juz dun have the mood for new yr..
*sighs*
Will be hating the horrible, noisy, irritating nags tml..
For I so wanna slp until late afternoon.. but cant..
Well.. tough life..
ciaos~

Last but not least.
=)
Something I like..
especially the 99% introvert.. LOL!
N I like the word sage.. XD

You are: The Sage (INFJ)(please read the red n blue)
In general, INFJs are future oriented, and direct their insight and inspiration toward the understanding of themselves and, thereby, human nature. Their work mirrors their integrity, and it needs to reflect their inner ideals. Solitude and an opportunity to concentrate thoroughly on what counts most is important to them. INFJs prefer to quietly exert their influence. They have deeply felt compassion, and they desire harmony with others. INFJs understand the complexities existing within people and among them. They do not call a great deal of attention to themselves, preferring that their contributions speak for them. They are at their best concentrating on their ideas, ideals, and inspirations.

You are clearly an Introvert -- XD
You scored 99% in the direction of Introversion, which means you are clearly an Introvert. People who are clearly Introverts are reserved, quiet, and contemplative. They dislike the social pressures of large groups and being the center of attention, but are not necessarily shy. They frequently spend time alone in order to reflect and "recharge".

You are an iNtuitive
You scored 34% in the direction of iNtuition, which means you are an iNtuitive. iNtuitives like to discuss ideas and tend to approach new information intuitively, focusing on the "big picture" rather than specific details. They find the future more interesting than the past, because they can shape it. While they recognize the value of down-to-earth practicality and concrete experience, they tend to emphasize the importance of imagination and inspiration.

You are a Feeler (-.-''' oh my.. I'm changing towards thinker)
You scored 3% in the direction of Feeling, which means you are a Feeler. Feelers are caring, supportive, and appreciative. They naturally reach out to other people, preferring to cooperate and agree rather than argue over who is right. They are comfortable with emotions, both their own and those of others.

You are clearly a Judger ( I love to make decision only at work not during social life)
You scored 91% in the direction of Judging, which means you are clearly a Judger. People who are clearly Judgers love to make decisions. Organized and thorough in their work, they make and stick to plans. One of life's small pleasures for them is checking off items on their to-do lists. Every thing in their lives has its place, and they are diligent about putting it there.

Life
As teenagers, INFJs look for a small group of people who understand and appreciate them. Without this support, they can feel isolated from others. INFJs who do not find a supportive social group may find the teen years to be somewhat difficult for them because of peer pressure to be "popular" and activity oriented. They are not likely to enjoy large parties, but prefer intimate groups of close and long-standing friends.

Love
For INFJs, "still waters run deep." They tend to become attracted to someone special and prefer this one deep relationship over many superficial ones.

They may not openly demonstrate, or even verbalize, their intense feelings. INFJs often have an ideal standard of what love is. They hold to their ideal and are disappointed when, inevitably, their relationship and/or their mate reveals flaws.

INFJs want to give love and to be loved. They enter into relationships just to be cared for, even when the person is not right for them and they suspect it. However, when they meet that special person, they are quick to get into the relationship and make it a serious one. They will end their other relationships in order to pursue their loved one. They become very focused, intense, and direct in that pursuit.

INFJs, when scorned, take it personally and retreat inward. They may obsess about the relationship and their role in its failure. INFJs may blame themselves and experience a period of mourning. If they do not marshall their resources, externalize their feelings, and take risks to move on, they may experience a long period of self-examination.

2010-02-12T09:33:00.000-08:00

Have u all ever tot...
How much u give in to a particular person would be how much you cared for and cherishes them?

"Teach me how to be a better person for my priorities.. It'll kills me to see them unhappy bout me.. "
Trust me, for a person like me that demands every single of me to be perfect...
I wans you to be happy wif me..
I dun care who u are..
For I noe, ppl's happiness will be mine at the end of the day..

I dunno if i've been a bad friend.. incorrigible ones' perhaps..
But.. one of my priorities words could change me if u have values in me..
Im this sort of friends..

It may seems fake..
to change for others instead of oneself..
U'll accept this truth someday..

I'll try till you change all the negative side of me to neutral and positive ones..
The flaws.. The strength..

*p.s. will u be the only 1 that hates me?
** im trying..

2010-02-06T08:12:00.000-08:00

$240- $70(shoes) -$20(food) - $10(transport)= $ $140

2 top and 2 btm to go..

OH MY GOD!

T.T

It does sucks living like you dun have enough $..

Thanks to buying new yr stuff..

It's another wk without $ on food..

But.. got the shoes i wanted~ vintage black/white

LOL~

Now then i noe my legs are bigger than bro's..

T.T

y am i so mutated?

hands, legs, size..

Its kinda saddening thou..

U're a girl n ur 5yrs older brother is smaller than u!

WEIGHS LESSER THAN YOU!

*five fingers sticks to one*

Went shopping wif hy n fishy @ orchard

-.-''' I shld get myself started wif my diet plan..

tummy~~ T.T

='(

I wan my bro flat stomach~

Maybe some bigger buttocks..

HAHAHAH!

His small..

TTTTTTTTTTTSSSSSSSKKKKKKKKK..

IRRITATING~

Back is hurting badly from the long hrs of shopping wif hy n fishy..

CIAO~

more shopping tml.

more clothes..

lesser $...

GREAT!

2010-02-03T08:35:00.000-08:00

01/02/10
=)
Finally got the chance to meet up wif bff..
Had sushi tei for dinner..
Wasn't a lot.. As it doesnt suits her liking..
Wondered if her apetite has been failing, as it was the first time she wanted to share the main course..
U better not try to slim down bcuz of ur bf i tell u!!!!!!
lols..

Anyway.. upon seeing his brother became handsome after slimming down..
Both of us had the urge to slim down as well..
Well, Im looking forward to starting work..
The time tat I would grab my change to cut some fats and earn some $ by not eating restaurant..
Juz work, hm, slp, wake up and work..
XD
HOW EXCITING!!

Oh ya!
Im finally back to the usual me..
=)
Thou I may still be a lil crazy at times..
BUT!
Im a HAPPY me..
Perhaps some bff fuel got me fully recharged..
Or maybe I managed to shake off all troubles and unfinished task..
=)
All im left wif is start earning $ for the upcoming korea trip..

soon to come..
A lil excited thou..

And..
For the upcoming CNY..
WHAT SHOULD I WEAR?
WHAT SHOULD I WEAR?

A lil boyish side of me..
Or a complete different me which my family and relatives wans me to portrait myself as..
Haha..

I dread to act pretty..
to be restricted..

Y cant girls be done wif juz t's and jeans?
-.-'''
HAHAHA!
Rmb-ed when I was young..
I actually cried being force by mummy to wear the SUPER DUPER UGLY dress she brought for me..
I locked myself inside the room and doesnt wished to come out..

Funny isnt it?
But as I grows up..
I deliberately make a 360 turn whenever its CNY..
haha..
Sometimes, All we yearned for is actually those words that you could seldom hear..

Hopefully not the word "FAT"

P.S. Believe that you're pretty.. you will be..
Believe that you looked can be handsome..
Of course! you can be.. awwww.. wat shld i buy~

2010-01-29T07:23:00.000-08:00

For a while, I felt happy..
I've learned from my lesson that perhaps we should cherish those that truly meant us well..
Despite watever obstacles, he/she would still be there for you as ur friend..
If all im asking for is a true friend..
Shouldnt I be doing things to make them feel more worthwhile being my friend that to make them feel otherwise?

Quit ur nonsense huiling..
didnt you always believe in "action speaks louder than words?

Let's not allow any1 to influence you so easily ar huiling!
peace, myself, think, think , think!

haha..
I think its bcuz of not getting to meet bff..
Basically im juz talking more n more..
Wif bff, I could listen more..
Sometimes she juz covers my mouth to allow herself to talk..
Mon mon mon.. =)

more rest, REST and REST~

2010-01-28T08:20:00.000-08:00

Will you wished to be urself, or go with the crowd?
What auntie 10 told me was true..
Perhaps it was after my birthday, I got tired of being the "me" whom i alway portrait to others..
Quiet,understanding, totful.. watever it may be..
She's right..
Somehow.. I did really feel tat I shld start living for myself.. not anymore for others..
In a way, I became more selfish, but wiser..
Perhaps bcuz of peer influene, I became loud..
I think without speaking..
I feel how i wanna feel.. instead of putting others before my veri own shoes..
Being cranky have my veri own attitude n tolerance.. Other than sum1 that doesnt have temper..
It's somehow made me feels more like a human..
Like 10 always said..
Im only my true self when im wif my close friends..
My flaws became obvious when im with them..
Its the only time which i could put down my masks..
N be the kid whom i nv showed..
hitting ard, playing, say out watever i wanna say, teased the both of them..
Its the only time i can stop being serious..
wif bestie, I dun have to show a single perfection..
she noes me more than I myself could realised..
I dunno if im better quiet to listen.. or 1 that could be the 1 that can chat wif you wholeheartedly(it might hurts if i said smth wrong; i juz don't noe how to think n talk)..

But it doesnt mean im fake..
I will be me.. again..
Listen and comment after thinking..
choose not to be close wif any single 1..
Be solo..
Its time to stop being cranky..
its a gd thing tat im gg back to being emo..
=)

sighs..however..
It only means that i wouldnt open up my heart to allow you to understand me better..
Im quiet by natural..
If only you could be the few tat says that im noisy.. and ask me to shut up and listen to you..
=)

<3 you guys always..

Some time for myself..
Away from being bonded too closely tgt..
But still, together..
Back to being myself wif short replies..
to think before i say..

jiayou huiling!

P.S. Im changing back for myself.. i dunno if it might be a lil too dramatic for the rest to accept..
but i should stop hurting ppl..

Sometimes I really wished that people will stop thinking about being fair or not.. But to really give ur all to the other juz to exceed the pt of human's selfishness.. A pt where u would sacrifice to see ones happiness instead of ur own..
i juz dun wan to believe in wat bff's said.. "every1 is selfish"
But.. even i myself gets tired of not being self centered n selfish..

Humans..
Horrible arent they?

2010-01-27T08:57:00.000-08:00

HOW COULD I DO WITHOUT U?
LOW EE LING!
<3

To tell me what went wrong.. when im totally clueless bout myself..
To cheer me up when i deep down...
thank you for always being thr for me..
guilding me out of the darkness when i call out for help..
=D
xie xie ni! auntie 10!

2010-01-27T07:43:00.000-08:00

It's kinda saddening to find urself changing..
But u cant do anything to it..

Juz that I didnt noe the truth will hurt so badly..
I've became selfish, self-centered, cranky and annoying..
I didnt noe what went wrong wif me..
But I noe my words went out without thinking about how others feels..
I dun bother explaining myself or things when it isnt right..
I got easily agitated.. that i'll vent everything even without thinking..

It's unlike me..
It really is unlike me..
Its not who i used to be..
to be able to feel how others feel..
To understand and give my helping hand..

Y do i seems so flawed now?
If things were only bcuz im juz tired,
y do i not sees or feels it tis way but thinking that im changing for the worse?

Im sorry..
but what else could i do to prove u wrong besides saying sorry?

Is this a year filled wif tears?
why am i crying this much when its juz january?
Im tired..

how much can you understand?

2010-01-24T05:24:00.000-08:00

Im back~

HAHA..

It has been dinosaurs years since i've last updated.. XD

Anyway, tis is what tat i've not upload to fb..

Thank you sweets for the $..

N ame for the wonderful handmade cake..

Hope u enjoyed ur celebration too..

Wonder if ur cake is worthwhile making..

haha

Is thr 2 idiots that has yet to give me any present?

HAHA.. i believe it will be on prissy birthday tat i'll receive mine.. -.-'''

January babies are often at lost bcuz we'll be soooo damn broke from dec events; christmas n new yr..

Well.. but i still love the both of u for helping me tat much during my birthday...

Anyway.. for the rest.. Thanks lots for the wonderful present and angbao..

Appreciated it lots..

Skipped bff's birthday..

Somehow i felt guilty bout it..

Will celebrate wif you soon!

Blated!

Anyway, the picture are so overdue so i post them juz to have some updates and ppl can kooped some of the pics that they wans..

So.. it will be a lil unrelated..

HAHA?

Y does medicine taste so bitter?

Y muz paracetamol be so big tat i had to chew on them?

EEEEWWWW..

hates medicine..

Well, this is taken at ahyan's coffeeshop..

Thanks for the treat!

the zicha thr tasted great!

The serving is BIG~

Next, I have something that was gg on round my head after yesterday's event..

Whr we had "true-true" games..

The sentence "do i have a lot of friends ponders me"

Haha..

I dunno if i have lots of friends..

But i do draw the lines veri clearly..

Till things became..

important and redundant..

-.-'''

If u realised, If im without my friends,

I don't like to smile..

There are commitment in friendship..

Those hi-bye friends, 1day class friends are not considered as friends to me..

Yes, friends if u wan.. But juz not those that I will show you "me"..

I believe the me if you don't know well..

Would be cold, unapproachable..

N.. Trust me..

I would speak more than 1 sentence unless its related to sch work..

Owwww..

My friend..
U're glad tat u're my friends isnt it?

I've talked more than 5sentences to you!

LOL!
juz joking..

You noe u're the friend that i need..

The one whom i can relied on..

The friend whom will be there when im at my worst moment..

The one that double my happiness when im wif u all..

One that allows me to understand myself evenmore..

Teach me to be the best of myself..

noes that im 4getful and dumb.. N yet.. will constantly be thr to get me out of the difficult times..

Noes me so well that you will noe what i want without even saying..

The one that I dun have to act like another person while talking to..

For you allow me to be me..

I dun need lots of friends to be by my side..

Juz the right friends to be there for me..

Forever and always..( can you say tis?)

that makes u different from those I dun regard as friends isnt it?

You noe u're important..

The clear difference from the treatement you receive..

2010-01-05T02:38:00.000-08:00

The neither up nor down feeling for birthday..
=(=

Its veri tiring/a waste to celebrate..
Seriously.
cater a buffet, bbq ordering, cake ordering, inviting guest, thing-do-buy n to-do..

Instead of feeling happy, I kinda felt sad..
lol..

I HATE DECIDING AND BEING FORCED..
I hate the two of them to be exact, I'll get angry n pissed over it..(lose my cool)
I hate to choose what every1 has to eat..
I hate to choose wat cake n what bbq stuff i muz buy..
I hate to choose dresscode..
I hate to have 100guest when I have to smile till my jaw's drop..
I hate it when relatives rushed me to get things done..
I hate it when they want me to spend more when i've already told them im SAVING for my friends present..
I hate it when i've already i have to do everything myself..
=(

the only thing tat brightens up me is that..
family to be asking, you wanna buy key a not? or juz give angbao? I help u settle tis n tat?
bff would panicked over buying my 21st present..
seeing auntie 10 n prissy de cunning smiles n seeing them planning everything in place, and nicely for me in buying the deco n small gift makes me happy..
n friends will be like asking what you wan? n have no idea what to get all bcuz I dun really need anything else..

haha..
To be exact, all i need is you ppl..
=)
to share my joy..
juz those people whom I cared, n cared bout me..

but haha..
y do i have a bad feeling that most aint free..
sighs..

Wondering if =( will over power =)

If i noe, I would rather make it a small celebration..

at least i'll feel happy from the btm of my heart..

2009-12-24T01:29:00.000-08:00

=)
brought a few more stickers so tat im able to write..
*scratch head..*
But im rly lousy wif hands-on stuff..
=(
STRESS AR!

Anyway..
It's Xmas eve..
Celebration at hm..
XD
Advance Merry Christmas!
pizza~ turkey~hams~ pies~ wine~ cocktail sausage~ logcake~ fruits and cocktail~garlic bread~ here i come~

Anyway, ion-ed wif bff..(rest of the pics in fb n waiting for her to upload)
brought my white hoodie @ pull & bear~ XD
off the wishlist again..

=(
effects from bff's camera is better than mine!
mine looked yellowish n ugly..
T.T
I bet she's not uploading it cuz i looked nicer..
WAHAHAHA!
juz joking.. -.-'''

anyway..
32G itouch..
im saving it..
=)

2009-12-21T10:25:00.000-08:00

wouldn't it be better if we were born without knowing our birthdays?
Sick.Of.Planning..

better off without..

2009-12-12T02:45:00.000-08:00

If you're a player, I'll play along being a player..
But if you get's serious, I will put a stop to everything..
Perhaps this is what things should be..

Good girl.not.
Playing along is better than commiting n putting in efforts for something..
Moreover, I have all I need..
Maybe..

Commitment-phobic.

2009-12-09T08:01:00.000-08:00

I might fall for people that are concerned bout me..
I really might..
Perhaps tis is y i dun like flirts..

I probably may fall for juz any1 if they are too nice..
HAHAHA..
-.-''' I sound so dumb..

Nah.. I've played too much..
Im really wanting to have a serious r/s..
A dream.. so near yet so far I supposed..

Too old for games..
I need 1 as perfect as me..
XD
I wanna find you..
=)
gentleman,generous,kind,sweet,talented,clever,respectful,honest,loyal,romantic
I dun really noe about love..
But i'll be the best u've ever got..

hahaha..
wouldnt it be better if i were a guy?
I could be a top flirt that every1 would fall for me other than being disgust..
=D
gentlewomen,generous,kind,sweet,talented,clever,respectful,honest,loyal,romantic..
lol..
too bad the boobs too big.. hahahaaha

2009-12-08T07:43:00.000-08:00

Life can gets pretty boring in sch..
Somehow, we noe how to entertain ourself veri much..
XD

Fishy can piggy back me!
lol..
So cool..
I wonder if I can carry sum1 heavier than myself..
Haha..

The chit-chatters + 1emo

The "zi lian-er"
100% perfect angle!
I shall learn from her to improve my camera skills..
XD

Lastly, the Dalangs..
Funny video made by them..
Too bad I promise not to upload..
If not u'll be laughing at it too..
XD

Well, Nth much to update recently..

Korea trip interview briefing on fri..

HK cafe +outing on sat..

Gg back to work soon..

I miss working..

Lastly, teppanyaki session wif bff next fri @ion..

Due to tis fri not being free..

Activity gao gao..

Yet everyday lifes is sooooooo BORING...

Hol faster come!

2009-12-06T09:08:00.000-08:00

This cost me $665.90..
lol..
=)
Finally strike off the wishlist..

Fossil watch, 2 itouch to go..
I'm so broke..

Looked thru the buffet list from neo garden catering..
Heartache for mummy..
buffet might be $12 or $13/pax..
N i had 100 guest..
Imagine a buffet that cost $1k..

How am i able to cut down on the expense on food?
5days chalet..
BBQ +buffet..
liquor..
daily food
snacks..
Worst, its only food that took away so much of the $..

Moreover thr's pj activity and games..
Maybe..
I shld skip tat..
LOL!

Thou its not my $ la..
But its still $..
Thinking tat mummy might be indirectly "lending" me another $1k for the trip..
*lending ; still muz pay back*

I think im spending a lot..

Time to put a full stop to everything..
Shall earn my own $ for the itouch..
Hopefully my job still wans me..

I feel so dead.
Having $600/mth..
I have to give $600/mth when I start working..
Pls allow tis 37days to not come so soon..

I WILL DIE EARNING $ when 21st strucks..
T____________________T
Well, Im still filial to begin with.. =)
Their happiness is mine..
Anyway..
Uploaded the overdue pics..
taken at yx's place after doing report..
Food thr is *thumbs up*!

Good atmosphere below the house too..
unlike mine..

i wanna live at tpy~
lol..

omg! its 2am..
dead.meat.
ciao~

2009-12-01T07:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wonder if tis bff is juz smth i've imagined..
Having a gd bff, Meet bff or watsoever..
Its as thou that bff doesnt exist..
Anymore.

Be it commenting on blog, facebook..
Having picture of the 2 of us in my computer..
Even birthday..
You not being able to come made you even more imaginary..

N all you bothered bout was your birthday..
Couldnt care a lil more about mine..

Im.Not.Tat.Mature!
Call.Me.Childish.

So what's the point of calling you my bff if others can do better?
Way better?

Sighs..

R.u.taking.it.too.much.for.granted.?

All I wished for my birthday is just those that makes a difference in my life..
Am I asking too much?
Oh ya..
I 4got its been 3yrs since we've last celebrated ea others bday..
Maybe bcuz u've 4gotten mine and you don't need frens to celebrate urs..
But a cake n present will always appear at ur house..
Cuz u're my bff..

The Best yet the Worst..

Sometimes I really wished that im not telling the truth..
But..
You don't really bother..
So, am I consider your bff?
Or what does it meant to you?

oh yes..
I 4got..
You wun reply..
You don't bother reading ur veri own bff's blog..

N it makes me sucks to the core bcuz everything juz makes me dumb..
ARGH!

WATEVER.

2009-11-29T04:36:00.000-08:00

Had a jog during late evening..
Lol.. run like a mad dog ard the neighbourhood..
Couldn't even complete the round like b4..
=(
T.T fat until cannot run already..

SO!
Am gonna restrict myself to $5/day!
XD
JUZ JOKING!
I may not survive.. -.-'''
I'll try.. lols..

Went to IT show wif prissy n auntie..
Been sooooooooo long since i've last met them..
Had lots of fun..
prissy got her itouch..
=( and ixus 100 is sold out!!

Thank god eugene is able to get the same deal for me over at his workplace.. plus free batt~
So.. ixus100 or 120, here i come..
Getting it on sunday~

Another thing strike off the wishlist~
fossil watch, itouchS to go..
course to slim down!!!!

Inside joke wif prissy of being able to meet the right 1 or not..
-.-'''
And we chat about speedy dating, being old virgins, getting old tortise..
For now, we're 20..
We can be joking it off..
10 years down the road I think we're be crying la!
Hahaha..

Everything has its own good or bad..
It's juz how you see those things..

quoted,
with many of their social and personal needs being met by friends, it's no surprise that women are more likely to question commitment. In the absence of one significant other, many women find themselves turning to their friends for support.

So, having a bf or not, does it truly matters to modern women anymore?
OF COURSE IT DOES! maybe..
chances of conceiving drops at 35..
good luck to you and you..

no.1.wish.to.be.single.forever.

2009-11-27T01:47:00.000-08:00

Does frienship fades with time?
I was hoping it doesnt...
But, am I doing otherwise?

The feeling that I may be dropping out of everything that I hold..
Living in a world without friends....

Am.I.Pretending.To.Much.That.Im.Tired.Now?

Walking too fast,
I cant seems to catch up with that pace..

Yet to mature......
But I just don't wish to see the adult world so soon..
Naive, I am..
Probably I will catch up after 2mths..
Or maybe not..

Life, I do not see them as a whole...
It's juz some broken pieces that everyone is trying to fit..
The more u try, the harder it gets..

There is no happy endings in this world..
F life.

2009-11-26T09:10:00.000-08:00

Quoted,
can someone true say ” i understand you very well” to me without me always telling you all about me.
if i do not talk about myself, can someone actually say that?

Not trying to act yi ge or anything..
But I do like quotes that strucks my imagination going..
No rights, no wrongs..
Something..
So hard to even comment to cheer nor say a single word over the feelings behind..
The slight pinch of sadness tat can be felt in a quote, i like.

Wouldn't it be true that if we never tell oneself about us, they are able to understand you? No.
Even if its the 1 that is the closest, dearest or 1 that have been wif you for ages? No..
In fact, it's really hard to find 1 that understands you without you telling them whom you are..
.......

Ans: It's our habits tat makes things obvious for the other to understand without words..
Time is all it takes..

I would ans:
I will not want you to tell me anything..
For I will understand one with my heart,
Those words, "I understand you very well" have no values in them for we cant understand one entirely..
I will try my best to understand you for whom you are..
Learning n understanding is for eternity..
Grant me the time n trust forever will be..
I will tell you, I can..
=)

Random.. XD
No offense, juz blogging..

goodnite n sweet dreams..

2009-11-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

Got myself a rather "cool" hairstyle again..
WAY TOO COOL to accept i guess..

Bro: It looks weird..
Mummy: Y cut so short..

XD
lol.. its some what new..
Basically, because I cut my hair veri often..
Bob, layered or 1 side short 1 long..
I've tried all kinds of short hairstyle..
Now its... IDK?

May be a lil boy-ish..
But its what my hairdresser tot would be good for me..
Well..

I shall not style it to look a lil more girly..
LOL..

Hopefully no negative comments..
=)

The tot of putting on make up for long and for real..
Maybe when I have more nice shirt than T's..

Would you agree wif me that being pretty is when you wan to catch the attention of one self other that putting it juz bcuz you wan urself to be pretty?
If you wans urself to be pretty, still, u're wanting others to noe it..

I.don't.like.the.attention.
I suppose..
It drops my morale..
Cuz..
Hmmm..
let's not go too indept..

P.S. I do not have outer beauty.. I'm flawed..
But all I have to do is polished my inner self..
Don't try to talk some sense into me..
It's reality and fact that you cant change..

Sighs.

2009-11-22T09:05:00.000-08:00

Dun think i'll be upload pictures cuz basically I dun think I have the mood to after the "lost and found" incident..

=(
Was scolded so badly..
Not by my mum but bff..
Sometimes, I dun have to say anything..
She'll get it all right..

I can be alright with everyone even if i lost the world..
But, the mask of "strong and acting" always failed when she's thr..
Lol..
I supposed I teared a litle over her words..
I guess im really tired, physically of not having enough rest..

I really dun mind losing things..
but.. yea.. how many times have I lost stuff?
Do I really have to lose stuff once or twice every yr?
handphones, wallets and now laptop..

sighs..
I dunno..
It really aches my heart to noe that my bff is concern bout me, while my mum is concern about the laptop..

Thank you for being there..
Cuz i noe u're the one i could count on..

Sighs..
Aint feeling gd although I had my laptop back..

Hates every part of what we called, the truth..

2009-11-18T08:22:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, we shouldn't see things too clearly..
It makes us tired..

Well..
Im tired to update bout my recent activities as well..
I need more rest..
Plently of water..
Bcuz my face cui-ed a lot when I dun have enough slp..

=(

If we were a little more true to our own feelings..
We wouldn't be feeling so miserable..

If only people takes the initiative to understand one another better..
We wouldn't be feeling so empty and lonely..

Too bad, Happiness don't come easy..
And saddness alway follows..

sweetdreams and goodbye..
xoxo.

2009-11-16T06:11:00.000-08:00

maybe, im tired..
too tired..
DUN CARE~
wooooohoooo~

2009-11-16T03:56:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I find myself childish to be upset over people's words and action..
I told you i'll start avoiding to solve problems..
I'd often believed that "duo yi ge bu duo, shao yi ge bu shao"
having 1 more or less makes no differences..

I don't really give a shit about those tat cares less..

Don't test my patience..
I've good temper, doesn't mean I have no temper..

Trust me,
I do have my limits in accepting attitude..

I might use my fist to do the talking..
LOL?
I just wished to vent everything out I supposed..

I will not b bothered bout it anymore..
SHAKE IT OFFFF!!!

p.s. "I need tat maturity.."

2009-11-14T02:26:00.000-08:00

http://www.spring.gov.sg/Entrepreneurship/FS/FS/Pages/young-entrepreneurs-scheme-start-ups.aspx

business grants..
OMG?
I wonder who will have the same interest as me to set up a super duper cafe..

Will you be interested to set up a dream cafe wif me?

Lol...

just keep dreaming..

Haha..

2009-11-12T07:37:00.000-08:00

Love?
Hate?
Happy?
Unhappy?
Emo?
Crazy?

Maybe im thinking too much..
Maybe I should always bear bff's words in mind..
"It doesnt pay to be kind.."

I'm not perfect..
It's hard to figure people's feelings..
I don't like this kind of feelings..

I felt helpless..
=(

The more obvious it grows..
I'm sure I'll start avoiding..

I don't really care for people that is out of my circle..
N trust me, that circle isn't big, not at all..
I wouldn't bother.. I wouldn't give a fuck..
I'm done figuring..
Exhausted..

2009-11-10T08:10:00.000-08:00

I would like to love..
<3

2009-11-08T05:32:00.000-08:00

Sunday is probably gonna end in a few hrs time..
Still not too late..
Happy birthday fishy~
=)

Too lazy for pictures..
So.. bear with it..
haha..

Half dead..
Fri..
Skipped sch.. was too tired for everything and intended to give myself a rest to pamper my soul..
but relatives came.. and it was hard to slp any longer..
=(

Realised 1 thing..
I'm not really able to slp well wif sum1 beside my bed..
Thou i dun actually flip much..
But.. I juz give them a lot of space n make my slp a lil less plesant wif the space being left wif..

gambled like thrs no tml wif them..
Had seafood for dinner on sunday..
Meet up wif ahyan, peg n friends afterwards..
Cuz ahyan has cravings for liquor..
pub-ed and breakfast n hm sweet hm..

Sunday..
Slack hm sunday..
kana tua..
Lost count..
But I pretty much don't care bout it anymore..
Things are meant to be if it cannot be changed..

The only thing im for sure..
It doesnt change friendship..
=)
hmmm..
Maybe it juz fades..
-.-'''
I don't really know how to say either..
the logic of "too much or too lil harms you, try striking a balance instead?"
Tat's how I supposed I should be feeling..

For gd or for bad..
Guess we've changed a lot..

Im actually missing those days..
childish moments..
haha...

Seeing ppl wif bff makes me think of my old times..
not as thou im not happy wif now..
Maybe..
Im juz yet-to-be tat as mature now..
N bbf's up ahead of how life is suppose to be..
haha..
If my mature is veri mature already..
I bet u haven seen better..
Someday I'll show u hers..
WAHAHA..

=)
The good are not for u to noe..
Bcuz it belongs to only.. me..

Don't.like.sharing..
Whr clever meets dumb..

goodnite and sweetdreams.

2009-11-05T08:43:00.000-08:00

I didnt noe the sentence
Single or attached can cause a kiosk on fb..
Im low profile to begin wif..
Dunno what the f*** gotten into me..
I typed in down..
Hmmm..
haha!

=)
its true..
being really comfortable with one,
you can talk naturally
topics comes naturally
and you will feel happier talking
it's without pressure
and talk not for the sake of preventing the awkard silence..

truly be able to be who we are..

hmmm..
It's been quite long since im able to learn from sum1..
It allows you to keep thinking..
R u the suspect or victim of the flaws and loop holes arising between ea other?
Or was it juz the barrier that one couldnt overcome?

How true will you be?

The flaws, the iceburg..
Im trying..

2009-11-04T09:30:00.000-08:00

Had a heart felt chat wif C.
=)
thanks..
At least I noe that im not alone..

Closer or not?
It's rly hard to tell..

Better off without?
I don't rly know..

Unhealthy to dread over it..
Remains forever a mystery..
For me to know.. and for you to find out..

Sometimes I wished that every friends will have "huiling, Im ur friend written on their forehead"
So I wun have to give my best for the 1's tat isnt..

Do you feel that way too?

2009-11-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

-.-'''
I ALMOST 4got to bring my calculator for tml's physics paper..
ALMOST!

Thank god I have a human notebook..
XD
Still the 1 tat noes the shit out of me..
how could I do without you ar my bff..
God didnt grant me brain..
Luckily he grant me a friend wif it..
HAHAHA..

Alright..
I'll make sure i've good news to report to her tml..
Ciao~
=D

Its dumb..
But.. I am by nature..

Drained by all the papers and UTs..
Im tired..
Veri veri tired..
But I still got to keep pushing myself..
JIAYOUS!

My.Best.Friend.
N.Always.Will.Be..
<3

2009-11-02T06:44:00.000-08:00

2 down 2 to go..

Would you believe that my mummy actually tells me to join the rest of my relatives in gambling instead of studying for my O's chemistry?
Haha..
I told you my family were special..
I think the 1 that truly cares bout my grades would be the 1 n only bff..
cuz u'll definately says..
"It's all for ur own good"
=)

bff: how's ur paper? know how to do anot?
me: huh..? some I noe.. some I dunno loh.. I cant possibly noe all right?
bff: you told me tat every year while having ur examination.. *tsk*
me: you don't expect me to be like you right? all noe how to ans.. -.-''' tat's insane.. (she insanely clever)
haha..
high expectation vs no expectation..
It couldn't be any better.. =D

Let me tell you a secret..
-___________-'''
I have yet to collect my N's n O's cert after 3,4yrs..
LOL!
damn retarded!
N I dunno whr to collect them now..

Sometimes I don't even noe what i am doing..
Will you teach me what's life?

Will they be better off without....
me?

sighs..
I wanna be better than me..
but im starting to doubt my ability juz bcuz I don't know how to communicate..
it sux..
it rly do..

2009-10-31T07:26:00.000-07:00

"Relationship ends, experience remains.. Every relationship you go through, lives on forever inside your heart.."
Well, I dun really tot of things as much as 2day..
But wun u agree wif me?
The 1st r/s might be the hardest..
However, the 2nd, you learnt from ur past mistakes or even the romance u've the from the previous to prevent harming ur love and love them more..
Yet, U wouldn't be hurt as much as before anymore.. The pain wouldn't hurt that much because u've grown from love..

Hmm.. I don't know..
I just feel that if a relationship is bound to end, it has its own reasons..
We will never learn unless we start moving on, be it having a new r/s or remains single forever..

HAHA..
I guess im bored..
Life's juz like the clothes im wearing..
Black and white..
lols..
made pizza bread as im rly bored..
I noe I shld b studying..
But I don't really care..
>.< perhaps tat's the reason I need 1 person to be bothered bout my life..
Tell me what's right and what's wrong..
Teach me what to do..
Decide stuff for me..
I dun like deciding..
perhaps that's why I have decisive friends..
It kills a million of my brain cells to decide something on my own..
SWEAR..
haha..
I noe im useless..
I juz preferred to be led..
Doesnt seems like the me in reality huh?
Well..
What u see could be deceiving..
You can't understand one perfectly if they themselves dun even understand what they truly are..

PS. I might..

2009-10-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

Wow.. it actually does cost a lot if u 4got to bring ur ez-link..

LOL! moreover I was using notes instead of coins while gg to sch.. -.-'''

well.. I couldnt be any blurrer..

Bcuz... nah.. im not gonna say it.. =)

Sometimes, I juz enjoyed look up at the sky..

Feel the breeze a little and continue my path back towards hm..

Have a cold bath and followed by a simple dinner..(thou it was a lil to spicy for my stomach to digest)

On ur laptop..

N stare blank..

Cuz its sooooo irritating to do rj,quiz n evaluation when u're pretty much drained after sch work..

And after getting ur job done..

*blank*

U don't know what to do next besides nuaing..

I dun deny it kinda felt gd..

But.. somehow..

A little too empty with all this routine gg round..

hmmm...

I dunno what to blog..

HAHA!

*The more you can't get something, the more you want to obtain it..

*deepest memories is only kept by the 1 whom can hurt you most.. weird isnt it?

ps. Im not 1 that is hard to communicate if u communicate wif me using ur heart..

Sighs..

silent. killer.

2009-10-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

Im feeling kinda crazy n happy recently..
I dunno y..
Maybe bcuz my life's got entertained..
It felt a little empty..
But at least things r finally going the right way..
How it should be..

Friends come and go..
Only true one stays..

Doubled ur joy n halfed ur sorrows..
Helped n be help in return..

Guess that's what friends are for.. =)
Idk..
I only get to live once..
y give half of what u can if u could give ur all for every1 since its only for this life?
Thr's nothing to be tat tiring bout..

Im soooo "energetic" at night..
Im bored yet tired..
haha?

I hope tis smile nv dies..
Cuz I really meant my smile..
=)

Sometimes its better count on urself than others..
But! U better not buy that gucci bcuz of watever reason it is!
DUH~

What can be so gd bout stuff when it cant makes u full?
dumb ppl..
TSK!

2009-10-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

I supposed this is what auntie was showing me over at youtube yesterday bout the 2 grp "girls generation" and "super junior"..
Haha.. thou its quite old already..
She still can tok bout it..
Damn random..
I wonder how she jumps from singing to watching the grp..
10:do u noe which is the only 1 that doesnt undergo plastic surgery..
me: hmmm.. I noe! the ugliest 1!
10:which 1?
me: -.-''' they looked the same..
dun believe u go see their mv..
O.O n its still looked the same..
But koreans sure noes how to dance..

Super junior, prissy's fav!
lol.. no more plastic surgery.. i guess..
Cuz not all handsome..
HAHA!
But if u see their mv again..
Hell, u'll not noe which is which..
auntie showed me the youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AB18uvq1OJs&NR=1
haha! whr they helped them make up for contest and dance girl generation song..
see if u could differentiate which is which..
-.-'''
But still, thanks for the updating.. u nv failed to take almost everything to chat huh? =)

=)
hmmm..
thanks bff for the mail too..
I dunno how to do without ur help..
appreciated it!

Owww...
Things finally is getting back to normal after pms-ing..
at least i nv attitude anymore..

Not into O's anymore..
how GREAT!
>.<

I wish.. to holiday with friends..
I wish I wish to start working..
I wish I wish I wish to take course for dance, music and exercise..
XD
Haha..
Its feels tat im blogging shit..
no link..
Physically, mentally..
thank god im not emo..
N.. thr's motivation..

=)

Everything's getting a little toooooo boring..
11th nov..
O's fast fast end pls..

2009-10-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

Ate, bowl-ed,chit-chatted..

Sch?

-.-'''

I think i've 4gotten what's that..

Only for 2day.. >.<

I noe I noe..

I still have O's to study for..

It has been rather long since i've last went out to enjoy..

Thanks luh.. to those that dun wanna come..

N those that insisted on wanting all to come..
Cuz things wouldn't be the same without ea n every1..

Hmmmm..

mentioning bout criteria..

Guessed his attached le.. hahaha..(DP)

Nah.. its alright..

What I need now is all I need..

haha..

Thou.. I do believe u'll be a gd choice..

For all, I juz need one tat will keep my interest alive, for me to not get tired toking to..

For me to learn and appreciates life better..

-.-'''

Like I've said.. Its difficult to constantly draws my attention and keeps me on track, in focus..

I'll be perfect..

If u only know how to use me best..

Allowing u to be the most fortunate 1 living..

Do you believe me?

haha..

I think i'll be the 1 pampering him than him pampering me..

Auntie 10 singing song~

over at the phone..

lol..

ciao~

2009-10-22T04:54:00.000-07:00

Luxuria (Lust)(undesired love) sin of having an inordinate and intense longing or appetite for sexual cravings.

Gula (Gluttony)(overindulgence)indulges excessively in eating or drinking.

Avaritia (Greed)(avarice) love of possessions and desire of wealth or more than one needs.

Acedia (Sloth)(laziness)The sin of being lazy. Ignoring spiritual well-being of personal duty.

Ira (Wrath)(anger)The sin of anger, the sin that kills. Sin of rejecting the Love and Patience that one should have, turning it to violent or hate.

Invidia (Envy)(jealousy) love to own what belongs to someone else.

Superbia (Pride)(vanity) The chief of all sins.excessive belief in one's abilities.

Sometimes, I really wished to be a psychologist to really understand human behavior.. It does provoke me to wan to read minds.. haha.. sounded like a psyco..

A bit of the sin here.. A bit of the sin there..
N we all became sinners..
We humans are actually a bit of everything which makes up 'us'..
But why do humans have such desire of bring oneself or others down..
Perhaps its reality that made us who we are today..

Sighs..
=( didnt do well for phy practical..
Well.. it over..
Maybe not tat over..
1 down, 3 to go..
I muz do well.. MUZ
I cant disappoint..

Im tired..
Shall juz leave the matter alone..

Explaination can makes one sick, and the other tired..
Let's stop this for a while..
=)
pms will be gone soooon sooon sooooon..
not at my best.. but will be..
Jiayou huiling!

2009-10-21T07:44:00.001-07:00

Emo's injured its leg..
N its like..
Swelling a bit..

Researched a bit n was recommend to give him special care..
Cuz its has self healing ability..
If problem still persist n its still limping..
Im bringing it to the vet..
=(

Owww.. it spoils my mood to study..

Took out its wheel to let it heals faster..
N supplment added for it to have fast recovery..
Get well soon emo!
Thou its still so hyper..( trying to get "jump" out.. as if)

But its getting old as well..
=(
Sighs..

Y does everything seems so upside down?

2009-10-21T05:36:00.000-07:00

For others to be happy will be her happiness..
But if hate were what she brings upon for others..
She'll rather not do anything to keep them..

Friends to me r juz like tat..
If I feel that im making ur life difficult or feels you dislike me..
I will distant from you..
I do that bcuz I treat you as my true friend..

I don't like seeing faces that can tells that people are disliking me..

Idk..
But im really a veri simple friend..
If i regard u as one, i only wished for them to be happy and i'll be happier..

lol..
I feels stupid explaining tis..
Its juz like..
When having exam tml..
Jiayous really brightens up my mood and spirit..
You give, I wun forget to give u either..
give and get..
(its my logic)

Ahiya..
I don't know hate in friendship..
don't teach me how to either..
Please trust me for who I am..
I wun disappoint..

Sighs..
Perhaps im not myself recently..
But I really don't know what's wrong..

Thanks bff for the study veri veri hard as tips huh! top students..
ITS SOOOOO USEFUL!
-.-'''

Don't bring me down when you know that you are those that could affects me..
.........
Weakness, as well as strength..

2009-10-18T07:59:00.000-07:00

I guess this would be my mood recently too..
=(
I've got tis fuked up, messed up feeling inside me..
What I wished to do is juz blasting emo music into my ears..
Not doing anything.. Nothing else..
But time doesnt allow..

I seems to stop having the motivation to study..
I don't know why..
I only feel like emoing with emo at hm..

Cute?
=(
It's getting old..
But still so fun..
Stuffed him 10sunflower seeds..
N it was his maximum.. LOL!
But its getting more n more bored cuz I wasnt able to entertain him everyday..
Or rather him entertaining me.. HAHA!
Jl told me tat he got his furball a new friend..
=( envy..
Mine is too old 4 a new hamster..

Dun think too far..
I noe what u're thinking..
-.-'''
Fate is what I believe in..
I don't know him.. Yet.. It feels as thou i've known him..
However, if fate doesnt comes my way..
I don't really know what to do..
=)
N.. Its not gonna happen..
ah.. but we sure r hamsters siao..
4 him to tell me he got furball a new friend..
MUZ BE.. HAHAHA..
P.S.New msn account. please add! ongjunliang@live.com (jl's fb)
-.-''' haha? Of course im not adding..
duh..

Sometimes, what's important to me is juz those that cares for me..
=
But I no longer know whom will be the 1 doing tat anymore..

I need to stop thinking bout everything and start focusing on O's..
I have to..

But on the other hand..
Do I really need to anymore?
sighs.

2009-10-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

Happy 21st Birthday Ginny..
=)

Sighs..
Im worried bout my own 21st..
80+- adult from my relatives.. (NOTE, its only adults)
plus friends..
100+-?
Dun u think tis is INSANE?

Sighs..
I dun really like discussing my birthday with my parents and relative(mother side)
I've mention countlessly.. that I didnt want them to go on fri 8/1 bcuz if only my friends were gg.. then.. whr will they be slping when there is only 2 rooms?
But they kept insisting that they wanna go thr to help out in the deco and such..
*five fingers sticks to one..*

I do think that buffet +bbq is already veri costly..
They still insist that they wanted extra orders..
*five fingers sticks to one..*

Uncle requested to dunno bring what karoke set..
Seriously..
Teach me how to entertain my guest when it will be so fuking loud?
*five fingers sticks to one..*

I allow u all to occupy 2 fuking rooms on sat onwards..
For u all to fuking gamble n let ur fuking kids to stay in the rooms to have their own space..
Y cant you juz give me mine?

IT'S my BIRTHDAY!
For goodness sake..
Y would you wanna bring ur relatives and add-on to my buffet list?
I dun fuking noe them!
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!
Its so fuking fuking fuking irritating..
Worst, My mum is agreeing to it..

ITS JUZ NOT UR CHALET!
ITS MY FUKING BIRTHDAY!
Even my simplest request of having only my friends to come on fri..
y do u wanna make it impossible?
Then what's the point?

Even on discussing the cake..
Its juz so ridiculous..
They even wanted to took away my fun of playing..
Saying.. bcuz the cake is exp, pls do not throw cakes..

Sighs..
Sometimes, I juz wished to tell relatives of my mum's side..
PLEASE!
Im not really that close with u all..
U cake tat my chalet.. yes..
but u cant take away the fun i'll be having wif my friends..
Its true that u all r filthy rich..
Wo bu xi han..
It was supposed to be my happiness of planning my own birthday..
Y would u want to destory them?

BUT Y?
Y would my mum be so selfish to only care for her own happiness instead of mine??
gambling, taking up my rooms, buying the food THEY like instead of what i liked, allowing them to do what they wished, take away my only day to juz enjoy wif friends n cuxz..
What's the point of this fuking birthday?
Y does everything seems to be so painful for me nowadays?
Im really veri tired..
Im exhausted..

I had enough of u all coming every wkends to gamble and drink..
ITS MY FAMILY?
I HATE YOU ALL!
...
I HATE MY FAMILY..
For one that never cares bout my feelings..
Will never be my priority..

2009-10-15T00:36:00.000-07:00

2009-10-14T07:17:00.000-07:00

Thank you..
Bcuz tat's all I need..
=)

2009-10-14T05:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, its hard to stay cool when i've already lost my cool..

HAHA..

I'd often Eat, Shop, Enjoy to reduce stress..

Try not to go out 7days/wk so as to prevent myself from being tired..

Unable to reduce stress and yet becoming more and more tired..

That kind of feeling.. im unable to handle it..

Maybe bcuz I think a lot more and further than the rest..

Yet, keeping almost everything to myself, I had no choice but to remain quite when im not alright..

bff, the 1 whom noes me best will noe the best therapy for me..eating favourite food and buy things to cheer me up..

auntie 10 will be giving a hard knock on my head and will always be saying "you think too much" and comes out either wif a win win solution to difficult problems and come out wif all sorts of weird stuff to keep me entertained..

Prissy will be the 1 I could teased and I'll be so damn happy after doing so.. (im not sick luh.. but its fun..haha)

I miss my 2 idiots and bff..

1.5mths more to the end of torture..

hmmm..

I guessed I shld apologise for being emo to my friends..

Im sorry..

But I really dunno how to explain tiredness..

I also dunno how to express how I felt..

Bcuz all I that was in my mind is..

im tired, im fuked up, im fuked up and IM TIRED..

I would break down explaining to you at that moment..

Cuz.. Afterall, im juz tired..

stress comes from tiredness as well..

I'll nv be worried bout O's..

I guess, but bcuz its a promise to pass..

I MUZ try my best..

Sry..

Im not my usual self nowadays bcuz I cant do the things I wan..

Eat the things I wanna eat to make myself feel better..

Act studious when im obviously not..

Trying to be happy when I could hardly even smile..

Im drained..

Being me is tiring, bcuz I've to be perfect..

Tired + tired = sibei tired..

-.-'''

If im quite, trust me..

Sometimes, Im better off being quiet..

Bcuz my words often have BIG impact on others..

I juz dun wish to hurt any1 when I dun think thru my brain juz bcuz im tired..

Bcuz hurting my friends would be hurting myself even more..

HAHA?

Maybe im crazy..

But at least I will think far better when im not tired..

ciao..

2009-10-09T04:56:00.000-07:00

=D
I've got changi seaview.. 8/1/10- 12/1/10
WOOOHOOO?
better than aloha la..
at least not as much rumors that its haunted..
-.-'''

Celebration will be on saturday 9th of january..
Friday is a stayover for all friends n cuxz..
Thank god I manage to get rid of those OLD GAMBLERS for friday stayover..
Consider urself as my fren, pls stay..
Thou there will only be 2rooms on the 2nd lv..
Pls bear with it..
But! bcuz i have crazy cuxz and hyper friends..
I think u wun have the chance to slp..
Think wif the liquor im bring u'll be able to drink till u drop..
XD
Im make sure every1 will puke!!
Say i weak!!!
WAHAHAHAHAAH!
but wif all gd drinkers ard..
-.-''' let's not say it too early..
LOL?
Will be awaiting for that day to come..
EMO de can EMO, HIGH DE CAN HIGH..
But try not to go solo or mini grps..
Stay tgt for me alright?
=)

Didnt get to meet up wif bff 2day for dinner..
Studied 4 a lil..
N gave up afterwards..
OMG?

I'm really really veri tired after school everyday..
Its tat kind of..
CAN DIE NOT RESTING situation..
Perhaps its bcuz modules are getting tougher..
-.-'''
In short.. its juz tiring to attend class..
Dun u agree?

XD
<-- overdue pictures..
pasta cafe is not veri nice..
LOL..
pasta mania can easily thrash them..
Moreover if its waraku or anything..
eliminated by bff despite the atmosphere..
-.-'''
Same goes to me..
It's the food tat counts..

haha..
Shall get straight to the point..
=)
It a gd thing to have a bff..
They dun come easy..
I believe when sum1 called you, only u her bff..
It will literally proves that u're the best out of the best..
I dun trust the word forever..
but I trust my bff for who she is.. capable of keeping up to her promise wif the word forever..

Sometimes, we should be a little more giving as well as forgiving..

If ur bff lies to you..
It might be bcuz they dun wan u to be hurt upon noeing the truth..
Or maybe they tot its the best for u to accept other reason..
but bcuz they cared bout ur feeling, they lied..

If they r a lil more zong se qing you..
It doesn't mean u're 4gotten..
It only means, u have to give them the time for them to strike a balance..
It may also be true tat.. they are more deared to their partners than a bff..
But..
at least u come 2nd out of their social list..
LOL!

If ur bff doesnt really cares bout you..
Cares bout them..
Im sure they will do the same thing in return the next time..
Bcuz they are the bff we choose to have..

If ur bff drifts away from you..
things are no longer the same..
there's too much unspoken words..
But juz rmb the unspoken word u used to share, not bcuz both have nth to say, but the heart has already told its story..
How many can be like tat?

=)
I believe in being the best in "BestFriendForever" and wif friends..

Bcuz those u trust will not disappoint u..

Explaination only covers part of the story..
We wouldnt hear the explanation either..
Understand the rest of their explaination with your heart..
Bcuz heart doesn't lies if we still regards them as bff..
=)

long~ wooooo..
ciao..

2009-10-03T10:19:00.000-07:00

Gg shoping tml or rather.. 2day wif bff..
=)
Awaits tml outing..
WOOOOOHOOOO~

Am gonna look out for tis bag tml~~
CHIO RIGHT? CHIO RIGHT?
Crumpler crumpler here I come..
But am rather worried.. cuz its an old model..
N brown is somewhat no popular in demand, may be out of stock..
Hopefully i can get it..
I've longed for it le..
If dun have.. rly dunno if I will the rest.. Cuz.. I prefer big base bag than V-shaped ones.. esp when its BIGBIG 1 .. colour oso not tat wild..
AHHHHH~~~~
I WAN I WAN I WAN..
lol..

-.-''' but a bit tsk..
cuz i only budget myself to $200 tml..

Im a lil confused wif my mixed emotions..
FOSSIL.. T.T
canon ixus.. T.T

watching bff shop tml will oso tempt me to buy more stuff..
clothes, shoes, shorts..
-.-'''
I think $1k oso will be insufficient..

1 thing, HOPEFULLY that idiot will go orchard tml after bugis..
if not..
hehe..
fossil??
*its even more expensive*
LOL!
OMG
kill me..

but i seriously needs a bag..
nvm.. I have my all time problem solver wif me tml..
=D
Im so gonna enjoy tml..
ciao~

2009-10-01T00:37:00.000-07:00

Finally able to post pics..
<-- tis is the bomb..
-.-''' Cuz it cost a bomb..
Cuz its all ph friendly n is made all from aloe vera..
My complexion seems to be better..
Hopefully im not comforting myself..
Haha..
Joined their member as well..

Hopefully $ will be able to last till O's over..
Cuz i've been thinking to stop getting $ from mum.. Nvm..

Ling's 21st..
A surprise bday party organized by rach..
N it made her teared..
Brought her a big btl of gin..
Too bad wasnt able to stay for long..
If not we would have drank till we puke..

Sometimes, I envied n salute her perseverance..
Juz hoped tat she'll be happy always..
But from what i see..
She is..
Family, Best friend, friends and sum1 tat loves her.. =) im happy for her..

TSK!!
Prissy.. 4 tis pic so small de..
anyway..
I'll be packed tis wkend again..
Studies seems to be harder.. but i'll try..
ciao..

2009-09-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

The sudden urge of smoking..
I wanna go clubbing wif rach,ling,bee n lian real soon..

Im getting tired of the real me..

It's affecting me..
My studies..

Useless..

Helpless..

Speechless..

2009-09-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wished u tell me the truth..
than to always not telling me anything or white lies tat is often weak and could be exposed easily..

U're not the only 1 affected by it..
Arent my feeling feelings too?

I juz dun understand..

2009-09-27T08:31:00.000-07:00

ZZZ.. blogger sux..
I cant upload my photos..
Anyway..
Went for bee's recommended de facial..
Brought products tat cost me a bomb..
N.. became a member of it..
Short short for tis.. cuz not impt.. -.-'''

Have been "sick" lately..
Still having slight cough.. or rather sore-throat..
N.. hmmm..
Some kinda "sickness" or smth..
Whereby I go to bed at 12am..
I will fall aslp only after 6am..
Slp disorder, stress, somethings wrong wif the body?
Guess i'll noe it tml..
N to those ppl that noes bout it..
I think i've been complaining bout it for the past few days, almost a wk..

Told bff tat it will be my dream come true that i will die young..
lol..
but.. If its true..
I think I will cry till the day i die..

=) thanks for the msges luh..
the countless GO SEE DOC.. N STUDY HARD!
N having rare cases of eating fish porridge rather than restaurant cuz I dun have gd digestion nowadays n could only eat 2meals/day..
N had my camomile.. cuz it will promote gd nite slp..
buying 10yr series..
despite ur bz bz bz 9-6/5day wk intern..

"You're not stupid, juz lazy" n "you juz use ur clever on other stuff beside studies"
I often laugh bcuz of that as it seems like its trying to hoax sum1..
however, if u were to think bout it..
how many people would be concern bout ur studies?
Trust you because of ur ability?
Understands you for who you are?

I'm glad, thankful..
Perhaps it may be nth to the rest..
but its a lot to me, the useless me that must be constantly reminded that im having my o's and needs to study..
Maybe one day u'll understand when ur family doesnt really shows much care n concern bout you..
maybe.. u'll understand..

2009-09-24T08:13:00.001-07:00

Owww..
lappy is still wif me..
Wun be lending it.. cuz.. not needed..
lol..

ARGH..
I have to rly concentrate on my studies..

Went for a haircut..
CUI-ED
lol..

NVM..
Will be bz this wkend..
Ling's 21st on saturday..
Will be spending quite a lot..
Cuz im settling the liquor for her bbq celebration..
Headache..

What could be worse than O's?
sighs..

Working for mum in the morning and facial in the afternoon on sunday..
Helping bee buy facial product for her to have her commission..

Oh well..
XD
meeting bff tml for dinner..
N to buy stupid 10yr series which I seriously dunno which is it..
plus revision book..

Hopefully I can win the 8million toto..
LOL!
Cuz i've thrown in $13.50..
HAHAHAHAHA..
Luck please come tml..
XD

Im crazy..
but somehow..
I need that $..
Too much to spend..
Too lil earned..

2009-09-23T00:33:00.000-07:00

I might not be updating until sch reopens..
Lending lappy to bff..
=)

Also a gd way to stop the temptation of wanting to on it..
Cuz the minute I on it,
Im stuck to the screen..
haha..

Still coughing pretty badly..
N it is affecting my slp n studies..
=(

O's practical is 29days down the road..
Jiayou ba huiling..

P.S. avoid contacting me through net or msn..
ciao~

Im rotting so badly..
But bcuz I promise to study..
I will..
So.. pls pls pls try not to ask me out..
I cant resist temptation..
Or maybe it wun kill to go out for a while..
Lols..

miss me..
XD

2009-09-21T02:46:00.000-07:00

Bee's princess..
Cute isnt it?
=)
Meeting her up tis sat for ling's 21st bday and sun for facial..
So.. will have more updates by then..

Down with flu n cough..
Perhaps that's the reason tat it has been spoiling my mood..
Have been having lots of "issues" wif my mum also..
I dun feel like mentioning it..

Thank you for ur encouragement..
Cuz I don't know what to do without it..
I'm studying hard for the next 1 mth..
Pls, try not to ask me out..
Cuz I rly dun feel like quarreling wif my mum anymore..
The upcoming O's is my everything.. my all..
I juz have to let her noe im not useless..
Haha?
But.. does it rly matters even if i tried?
sighs..

Don't compare me with ur two precious sons..
Im not even treated fairly to begin with..
Sometimes it's rly so hard to tell if im a part of the family..
Or was it apart from the family..

Losing touch of time..
Sometimes I wished I can slp forever..
Im tired of reality..
What the point of striving so hard when u don't have to?
Will you teach me otherwise?
Prove me wrong..

2009-09-19T12:07:00.000-07:00

sighs!
I hate it when i dun have enough $..
It sux..
It rly do..

mayb bcuz im sick..
>.<
watever..
hates mummy..
=(

2009-09-16T23:49:00.000-07:00

wed 16th sept
buffet session with sweets,
after tat met up with BFF for dinner..
went back hm n rushed to dbl o to meet up with sweets again..
activity gao gao day..

Managed to have more drinks than before..
But wasnt as seh as before..
Cuz the 2 idiots wasnt thr to toss n slam me ard..
lols..

Sry ppl..
I still couldnt gauge my drink limits well..
at least I could still walk tis time..
not being dragged..
HAHAHA!!!

ohmigod feeling worse than last time..
Cuz I couldnt puke..
>.<

till then..
slp slp slp..

2009-09-14T05:05:00.000-07:00

I'm dying..
I'm dying..
I'm dying..

I'M DYING OF BLOOD LOSS..
-.-'''

Dun think i'll update a lot..
Cuz i basically missed a lot of updates..
Im lazy to do the rest..

Handling the ghostly town stall is killing me..
especially when i have menses, nth to keep me distracted..
*faints*
Im working for 9hrs tml..
=(

However, it also means i've more time to study..
Cuz im working alone..

Not working anymore after tis wk..
I have to start studying already..
Cuz im really lagging behind time..

till then ba..

P.S, the importancy of one could only be judge when things happen to them..
You know how important you are..

(motivate me to study!!!)
teach me how to feel stress..
>.<

2009-09-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

teach me whose's at fault..
you or me..

have my words really reached ur mind..
or is it juz another excuses given to worsen everything..

I wished I can tell you im at fault..
But tis time, Im not giving in..
You should understand why..

If u don't seems to care..
Don't bother..

Im human too..
My feelings isnt dead..
Y don't u understand?
redundant or unintentional..
I no longer noe..

2009-09-03T08:32:00.000-07:00

Thursday, 3rd sept 2009
High tea session with elena..
=)

bakerzin is nice..
famous for their cakes..
shall not write more bout it.. pics will tell..
working tml is TSK!!!!
=(
enjoy~ haha! pls do not drool on ur com..

youngsters drink ice latte..

old lady drinks earl grey..
LOL!
>.<

this is heavenly..
its called rasberry panna cotta..

Chocolate souffle..

Strawberry shortcake

Macarons!

Well, I couldnt deny that the food thr was nice..

perhaps bcuz its all recommendation inside the menu..

But.. all those juz couldnt fill my stomach..

So.. pizzahut~

lol..

Was too hungry..

Totally 4got bout taking pics..

haha!

Thank you for your bling-ed hp strip..

love em..

thank you for being my bff..

couldnt be more satisfied..

Got tis for emo..

dino house!

woot!

N its slping inside..

How adorable..

alrite..

Ciao~

dead beat.

2009-09-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

Im lazy to upload picture for today..
Neither am i in the mood to blog bout recent activities..
Will blog when prissy send me the pics..

Sighs..
Im getting sick of humans..
Seriously.. I am..
I dunno y..

Perhaps im tired of being me..
I'm suffocating myself..

Would you slow down everything for me?
I cant catch up with reality..
Im tired..

2009-08-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

=)
It's been quite a while since i've last blogged pics bout food..
So.. here it is..
Cuz sum1 is finally free from exam shits..
Haha.. but her internship is coming..
-.-'''
How bz..

Didnt update recently..
Life's basically, eat, slp work.. and some meet-ups wif bff for dinner..
Stayed over at yima house on sat..
Nua-ing.. gambling.. drinking..

Im sooooo tired..

I rly rly wish to stay at hm recently..
Try not to ask me out..

Another reason of not gg out is..
Haha..
Im broke..
Hmm..
Nah.. Im saving $ again..
Let's not tell you y..

Will skipped buying a camera due to some circumstences..
Haha..
Will also take some time to buy my fossil watch..

So.. starting from next wk..
I'll be working extra hard once again..

Hopefully i'll have more time to study for O's after 16, the whr pay is counted from 16th-16th n paid at the end of the mth..

Working have been rather tough recently due to the sudden change of stall manager..

No more latte art = no more passion..

No more passion = no reasons to stay..

No work = no $ extra earnings..

No $ = no programmes and FOOD..

SIGHS!

But thank goodness im working alone tis coming wed n fri..

Meeting up wif prissy n auntie 10 tis tues..

N bff on either day of the wk..

Hmm..

I truly am hoping I wun spend much..

Cuz i rly wish to get smth for myself before sch reopens..

Smth to keep my next sem started..

Yet O's coming..

If $ doesnt comes from work..

It only comes from parents..

Yet mummy gives allowance during the holidays..

I think i'll have to rob the bank wif my spendings..

haha?

No worries huiling..

U'll find ur way out..

Hopefully..

U noe its worth..

or maybe...

...

not..

I dontcha noe..

Have to save up for oct n nov cuz i wun be working..

ARGH.. stupid O's..

HATES.

Finally panicking over $ issue..

Meanwhile.. I think its a gd time to cut down on my intake..

Getting fatter n fatter..

argh..

mayb tired 2day..

dun like blogging bout all the negative stuff..

Moreover $ isnt rly my kind of story..

Hate tis kind of feeling..

2009-08-26T04:22:00.000-07:00

OHHHHHH..
At last! free to blog..
Wafer UT was horrible..
But who cares anyway?

UT days are finally over..
However, sad to say.. O's coming..

Sighs..

Monday, Bowl-ed, movie-d and catch soft toy with ahyan and ahpeg..
after dim sum, had fondue..

Tue, after wafer UT, had gerale ice cream wif ame n ahpeg again..

Sry bff..
ice cream sick..
Hagendaz doesnt work either..
haha..

ahyan

ahpeg

The fondue..

Met up wif bff after work 2day..

To satisfy her craves for chicken..

Chit chatted a lil..

and head back immediately as she has to go back and study again for friday's test..

didnt have ice cream therpy as I have been overdosed by it..

choose herbal tea instead..

Saw wil n his fren jl..

Fated or Coincidental?

I cant rly tell..

Perhaps I've been rather love sick lately..

But I rly wonder..

Is it juz me? thinking too much?

(while fbing.. doing quiz.. received comments, questioning y am i fbing when i was at tam a moment ago)

Haha..

Or his the 1 that caught my attention?

Missed the chance,

Never to be mention again..

We wouldn't be meeting or chatting anyway..

Or maybe not..

I shall not be so sure of it..

-.-'''

P.S. Sry if i spoil ur mood over the phone.. but i really doesnt wish to listen to any update bout it.. U noe what im trying to say.. or perhaps, u wun be reading it.. For sure or rather not..

Sighs..

Sometimes, I dun really know what I wan..

But selfishly, I only wish to listen to things I wished to hear..

Am tired tis wk..

Leave me out..

fukfukfukfukfukfukfukfukfuk..

Emo like emo..

away from humans..

2009-08-20T10:25:00.000-07:00

Tired after UT and outing with sweets..

shall not blog much..

Had a great day 2day at orchard..
brought slippers to reward myself.. =)
Hm ard 10plus..

Its chinese 7th mth..
Take gd care of urself ppl!
(burning of hell notes and incense all over sure is scary)

XD
Pictures heavy..
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2230410&id=524267766&comments&alert#/album.php?aid=99357&id=524267766
enjoy..

More to come..
I supposed..
9 lian pai.. -.-'''

ciao~

2009-08-17T07:43:00.000-07:00

If having BFF, thrs card..
=D
I ought to be happy.. extremely happy..

ok.. its random..
Juz trying to tell myself..
Perhaps i shld start making myself a good BFF too..
hmm.. I am! -.-'''

omg.. perhaps making stuff like tat isnt my forte..
BUT BUT BUT! lil tiny winy hand-made stuff is enough to melt me alive.. XD

Nvm nvm..
Mummy choose this sofa..
It juz reminds me of chocolate spongecake everytime I go to the living room..
Anyway..
To conclude everything, the living sux.. bcuz the arrangement of the old sofa is like..
right by the window..
-.-'''
how bad can it get..
home is juz a shelter.. I guess..

Next, emo;ben dan..

WTH!

I seriously cant stand his "manly" smell already..

I don't know y..

Perhaps bcuz its has mature already..

IT STINKS..

LOL!

BUT its juz too adorable..

I juz have to change his bedding more often..

My room used have tat "heavenly smell"

but now it smells like "hell"

If only I could spray perfume on him..

I swear i'll pour the entire btl inside the container..

LOL!

HAMSTER ABUSE!

CALL POLICE!

tired.as.usual.

ciao..

2009-08-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

Made tis on wed over at ame's house after bugis shopping for d.i.y stuff..

I wanna make more!
XD
but the beads is wif ame..
*wink wink*
lols..

Hmmm..
Have been feeling rather tired lately..
I seriously needs a break..
UT3 exams n O's coming..
SIGHS!
Study tgt any1? my wafer sux la..
im soooo dead..

If I could turn back time..
Im bored!
yet tired..
HOW GREAT!
=(

Not working for the next few wks..
I DUN CARE!
shit u for making my life more difficult..
Now.. i'll make urs difficult..
WAHAHAH!
-.-'''

P.S
Missed the chance..
Wonder if we'll meet again..

Perhaps.. this is how life is supposed to be..
haha..

2009-08-13T07:00:00.000-07:00

Isnt it adorable?

He makes me happy when everything goes wrong..

Despite how tiring life is..

Staying in the room alone wif ben dan will cure all tiredness..

Sometimes I really felt useless and stupid..

To be someone tat would be greatly affected by friends..

I believed I may not be a good daughter, sister, student, lover nor worker..

But, I will never allow myself to not be good friend.. tat's what i've always keep up to my own trust..

It'll kill me to have a friend that dislikes me..

I've often masked myself to be liked, appreciated and needed by my friends..

To be reckon is my everything..

I tried, to be a good daughter..

I tried, to be a good part-timer..

N my veri best for friends..

Soon.. Everything became my habit..

I wouldn't blamed any1 for trying to say that im fake..

Cuz im am tired being myself..

Seeing ppl's behaviour and expression which generates more n more question for myself to help others..

It's alrite to help..

But.. If I became a nuisance..

or get helpless over things I couldnt sove..

It juz makes me evenmore tired...

sighs..

Perhaps i've been drowned by my own masks..

hmmm..

Have u ever understand the sentence..

your happiness will be mine?

how come tis simple request of your happiness would drained so much of my energy and get me no whr?

Im not superman.. I've my days of being tired to help ppl..

I aint perfect..

thank you for your thank you which makes my day..

helping you makes me happy..

encourages me to be better..

perhaps im luckier..

Next,

Having 1 that shared wif me my troubles is L.O.V.E.D..

thank you as well..

I managed to share my feeling which I seldom do..

It makes myself a lil more human..

shhhh..

ciao..

2009-08-11T08:50:00.000-07:00

Im happy for having great friends..

I seriously do..

=)

ps.Sometimes, you juz have to tell urself, there are still people that cares for you..

2009-08-10T07:59:00.001-07:00

Bro got himself a 8G walkman phone..
As a sis, Didnt wanna lose..
Got myself an 8MP camera phone!!
pixon!
Finally the phone that i've been dying for..

XD
Charge it under his bill..
Freakingly saved $178!

But I did contribute oso..
To his $7 screen protector..
LOLS!

Sometimes, $ is really really really the means to put a smile on one's face..

Had family chats today..
Daddy finally had his off day..
Shopped for new sofa set as the 1 we had was -.-'''(stretched open)
muz be browie fat ass..

Cooked dinner at night for the 2 bums while mummy n daddy went house visiting over at er gu place..

alrites.. tired..
1st day and had scratches all over the screen protector..
LOL!
-.-'''
gonna transfer data..
ciao~

If tis could last forever..
Im sure I love you more than ever..

2009-08-09T06:21:00.000-07:00

Sunday, 9/8/09
Happy national day!

Haha..
Slpt till 12pm..
N it was like.. Finally~

Met up with ahyan, shopped at ikea for beads..
Tam-ed to look for templete.. but was too redundant to buy the full set..
Oh well.. but I did shopped a lot 2day..
=D ate lotsa stuff..
Even had zi cha after returning hm..
Winner's treat..

Alrites!
My relatives are invading my room..
SIGHS!
hates..

Gonna get my pixon soon..
Ciao~

2009-08-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

Saturday, 8/8/09
Woke up at 5.15am as usual and prepared for work..
Working has bcum more and more tiring..
Tonny had planned the schedule such tat there weren't any cleaner in my shift..
IT SUX TOTALLY..
Cuz I had to do more work than usual as the midnight staff juz isnt doing their job..
Had to repeat such routine next wk..
Not gonna put schedule anymore..
straight 7hrs shift without food = juz kill me..
Im soooooooo tired la..
hate cheapo, take ppl for granted guy..
Zzz...

Went back hm after work, bath n went out to meet sweets at CCK..
Cab thru and fro.. luckily at night managed to share cab fare wif ahyan..
tyvm.. loves.. =D

Had lots of fun..
Arcade-ed; n they spent a lot on the sweets machine.. silenthill-ed wif ame..
Grabbed my first meal of the day.. yums..
N head to ame's house..
Mj-ed, used beads to form shapes and pattern and piano-ed a little..

However, time past very fast..
Enjoyment comes short..
But enjoyed myself a lot..

Didnt get to meet bff..
but i sure wanna go out wif her asap after her exam..
=)

Alrites..
Am really really tired..
Ciao..

Another talisman note..
XD

2009-08-07T03:43:00.000-07:00

friday, 7/8/09
Skipped sch 2day..
Was feeling extremely tired yet forced myself to wake up n meet up wif sweets at wdland control station..
hmmm.. the dark-coloured curtain allows me to slp better and it feels as thou its 4ever night time..
Owww..

Had K-session..
But really had to apologise..
Cuz ahling really doesnt likes singing K..
If I rmb-ed clearly..
I only went once wif bff n once wif auntie 10..
Throughout my so many yrs of friendship..

Hmm.. Maybe a little hard to accept..
But nvm..
Talking already makes me tired..
Singing makes me even more tired?
Wonder if tat sounds convincing..
HAHA!
sighs..
But im really sry to be such a spoiler..
Sometimes, I can really be veri stubborn..
I only likes to listen..
It's really me by nature..
I dun mind wasting that $..
I dun mind not singing..
But i noe it will make the atmosphere cold..

Maybe..
I'll choose not to step into K ever again..

Perhaps im tired 2day..
Allow me to be not so understanding 2day..
pls do nt comment..

2009-08-06T06:18:00.000-07:00

Slping wif mr corn..

AHHHHH..

I sense that emo is getting lonely..

>.<

Put it inside the ball..

3mins later..

The cover came out..

hide n seek wif him a lil..

But it surly scares the shit out of me..

cuz the room is hella big to find a pathetic bendan..

Perhaps i'll get her a girl soon..

two males is too gay..

but..

I dun wan it to give birth..

sighs..

Bendan is too fast for me to play wif him..

Nvm.. shall play him some sendimental songs later..

-.-'''

Its not human.. but it has feelings..

So tired yet bored today..

Sometimes I wonder if emo's coping as well as I do..

Being alone isnt tat bad..

or is it not?

Maybe its time to get him miss clever..

but.. will 2 get along?

SIGHS!

its so retarted..

perhaps I shld get him more toys that really entertain him..

and food that he will snatch from me..

Im tired..

r u?

2009-08-05T09:15:00.000-07:00

by2 - 我知道
作词:于萱作曲:于萱
从来没想过不能再和你牵手委屈时候没有你
陪着我心痛一切都是我太过骄纵
以为你会懂一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我虽然分开的理由
我们都已接受你知道我会有多难过所以
即使到最后还微笑着要我加油我知道你还放不下我才会
在离开时闭着眼没有回头我们都知道彼此心中其实
这份爱没停过

从来没想过不能再和你牵手委屈时候没有你
陪着我心痛一切都是我太过娇纵
以为你会懂一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我虽然分开的理由
我们都已接受你知道我会有多难过所以
即使到最后还微笑着要我加油我知道你还放不下我才会
在离开时闭着眼没有回头我们都知道彼此心中其实
这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头我多希望你还在我左右
我知道你还是爱着我虽然分开的理由
我们都已接受你知道我会有多难过所以
即使到最后还微笑着要我加油我知道你还放不下我才会
在离开时闭着眼没有回头答应你
我会好好过不让这些眼泪白流

2009-08-05T06:13:00.000-07:00

Finally got the chance to meet up wif the always bz bff..
Trust me..
I'll skipped sushi for at least a few mths before I start eating them again..
I've been eating jap crusine for like so 1-2 times a wk?(i had them yesterday at P.S)
-.-'''

Tots have been running wild inside me..
Bcuz it has been way too long since we've last met..
And, even inside the phone convo..

The talk was like..
Stiff..
But..
After meeting..
Things went back to the usual self..

Eat.. Shop-ed.. Slacked..
Nothing seems to change after so long..
But had our friendship fade or strengthened..
I no longer wished to search for an answer..
I juz need my bff to be my bff..

Prissy blog post kinda makes me emo..
She had bff similar to mine..
Having 1 that hardly makes a difference anymore..
Friendship changes, yet we're the 1 that had always stayed the same..

Indeed my 5yrs of friendship is uncomparable to every1 elses friendship..
I dun have bff that cares bout friendship..
Have time for friendship as well..
*wouldn't be staying long for my 21st..*
=)

Perhaps it is the friendship that gives the greatest disappointment..
but perhaps its bcuz i've too much expectation from you..

Sorry..
Being ur bff,
I shld have already noe that u're 1 typical sch girl that is always bz wif sch stuff.. bcuz u totally get urself all focused when exam is near, even if its 1-2mths b4 the exam starts..
I shld understand that bcuz u have ur own life, u have to spare urself off everything during ur wkend to be wif people that allows you to be happy(n.. i did tat already)

Listen to ur explaination even if it seems ridiculous.. (ur shopping wif eugene instead of asking me ur 2mths+ nv meet de bff out..)
Even u have time, most probably u'll be stuck at hm.. (n.. i've listened and accepted all)

Thanks for doing the same..
I seriously do..
Bcuz ur chionging books period is starting, u do not have time on wkends, u asked me out 2day after ur revision wif ur lecturer..
U took the initiative while i've give the choice entirely to u urself..
U're not pissed anymore cuz im super late..
U understand that I enjoyed slacking.. so went to starbucks for some chat when u actually have to do revision after you go back..

All this..
I do understand..
Cuz im ur bff..

I really hope for tis bff to be 1 that could constantly update me while I have the chance to update her..
something to keep such friendship alive..
I wonder if u understand..
I'm really halfway giving up..

For me to have friendship tat doesnt feels as thou it exist..
U noe i'd rather not have 1..
Sometimes I wonder y it has to be you doing it when u noe me inside out..

happy
sad
exhausted
disappointed
loved
smiled

2009-08-04T09:42:00.000-07:00

Was called down for dinner wif the usuals..
N.. 2day is MY dearest auntie 10 actual bday..
040809
=D
OWWW!
Its belated le..
TSK!
WHOSE FAULT?
lol..
Met up wif prissy first as auntie was late as usual..
Had ljs cuz I was hungry..
After that head to starbuck to get a drink as prissy needed cable to get her script done..
while i psp-ed a lil..

after 10 n her friends came..
went to eat again..

<--N bcuz tis kid didnt bring her camera,
She uses my hp to camwhore..
haha..
only few mths apart yet tat much differences..
LOL!

But its not bad to have a sis like her..
Cuz, I nv fail to suan her n tease her..
XD

HAHA!
I seriously got damn lots pictures of them inside my phone..
N its not taken by me but them..
-.-'''
Polluting my phone..

Auntie acting shy..
LOL.. >.<
(taken by prissy)

Hot coco, ice cream..
entertained ourself while 10 is bz entertaining her guest..
-.-'''
Thanks to the kid beside me..
I starting to join in instead of covering..
She basically lift up the camera n waited for my reaction..
PRO isnt it?

Took tis picture wif her polaroid..
Headed to arcade while she parted wif her friends..
Took newprints and bball and carrace a little..
Time past so fast that we're being chased out of the arcade..
Hm sweet hm after tat..
=D
Hope u enjoyed ur advance and ur actual 21st bday..
Friends for life..
Cheers!
Backache again..
Alrite.. ciaos!

Bcuz things meant to be tis way,
It's either putting u on top shelf above the rest.. or merely some nobody that i'll leave aside..

Sometimes, I wished u r elena n doesnt possess a lil of may..
Perhaps friendship would have ended long ago if it was like tat..

U have ur reason for being... bff..
That's what my heart always believed..
However, the brain is getting tired of waiting for miracles each time..

U'll noe what I mean..
If tis is what u're doing..
Im sure u're prepared for the worse..

I hope for some "trust" to be regained tml..
It'll keep me gg for a while..

2009-08-03T08:19:00.000-07:00

Cute isnt it?

Manage to get back early after early dinner wif ahxiang..

Decided to play wif ben dan..

put it inside the ball, took out all his stuff, disturb it and taaaaduhhhh~

LOL!

Its simply too tired to move..

The cooling pad is the only thing that it likes..

See how he spread himself over the plate?

Sometimes its really veri nice juz to watch wat its doing..

Turning, cleaning, clearing the bedding, eating, drinking..

But.. It has been slping a lot lately..

Wonder if I shld get him a miss right..

HAHA!

Ben dan is getting bigger..

Cuz its a male..

But still, as fast as lightning..

Almost impossible to catch..

Owwwww.. to get him more goodies or a partner..

Hesistating..

Mummy brought this bedsheet n quilt..

/-.-'''

Guess winter is coming..

LOL!

Got the curtain changed as well..

Sometimes, its so troublesome having a room to urself..

Everything had to D.I.Y..

N.. worst.. if the bed doesnt match ur curtain..

It juz means..

IM TOO TIRED TO GET THEM CHANGED AGAIN..

haha..

Will be meeting the usual 2 tml after sch..

O's is nearing..

Yet to study..

Im soo dead..

UT is ard the corner too..

Im soooo dead..

But still, I wan my HOLIDAY~

Im worried for myself..

but my energy r running low..

Very..

sighs..

doesn't matter..

.....

....

...

No longer any concern..

Too tired to even bother..

Tried my best..

2009-08-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

2nd aug 09..
After 10's chalet, headed back hm..
Heard that thr's guest coming..
Cleared the entire house..
Do up the laundry and swept the floor despite being extremely tired..

Was extremely tired after bathing..
So decided to skip west coast park trip wif sweets..

Watched ben dan for a moment and fell aslp almost immediately..
Without turning on the aircon nor fan..
Woke up sweating all over.. ard 6pm.plus
LOLS..

Noticed ahyan msged..
Decided to get up from bed n go meet her..
intented to emo at punggol jetty..
But ended up touring the country club cause it was too late for prawning session..
went sengkang to shop for a while and hm sweet hm..

=D
We're still hoping if the 5 of us stayed near each other..
It might have already been our daily routine to meet up as n when we like..
HAHA!
Anyway.. two is awesome too..
Thanks for the simple and nice outing..
XD

Alrites..
I miss my bed very much..
Gonna prepare for tml's clothes and head for bed soon..

Back hurting badly recently..

I wished thr's 48hrs a day..
24hrs of slp..
24hrs of play..

Tired..
ciao..

"It has been quite a while since we've last met.. I wonder if it still matters, anymore.."

Another hetic wk ahead
I shld stop working for a while soon..
I burning myself out..

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Next is my autie advance 21st bday celebration..

sry ar...

only esther uploaded her pics..

So.. only have tis pic..

Prissy bussiness too big.. haven upload..

haha.

Soo.. tis is the reason im bz..

*nods vigorously..*

Luckily had prissy to tag along..

Digging pics for the chart, getting them printed..

Taking up days to get her present as well as doing the fake present..

Had prissy to come over my house to do up the chart..

Till 1.40am and waking up at 5am to prepare for work..

And her celebration right after tat..

now u now y im soo tired le ba auntie..

Haha..

Celebration was crazy..

First it was whipped cream, next thr's flour then comes the choco cake..

It makes the bday girl a cake herself..

LOLS!

Thanks for the BIG hug that destroyed my T's..

Hmm..

Thou its not the actual day yet..

But hope u've enjoyed urself loh..

We tried to lighten ur work load by being ur servant liao..HAHA! got gan dong right?

Anyway..

Seeing her 21st reflects badly on mine..

-.-'''

Bcuz she's not gonna make mine easy..

Luckily thr's too many ppl to cover up whose the culprit for whichever subbo..

LOLS..

Anyway..

Cake fight is OhMiGod NOOOO..

Bcuz u'll literally smells like cake even after bathing.. -______-'''

At least I've tried to make u white than black..

LOL!

Hmmm..
But still..

My same old usual words..

Getting old soon..

Stay happy always..

Will forever be ur sweetest friend..

*smiles with a peace sign*

Being happy on bdays is when u noe u're celebrating wif ppl whom u noe cares for u...

Let's have dinner tis tue, juz the 3 of us..

We're the best aint we?

8yrs of friendship, still counting on..

Loves..